i don't know how to blog

i just can tell you whats in my heart ....and thats quite simple actually...just trying to survive and probably that is what is holding me back...that im trying too hard to survive so much so that i am not looking beyond it...i am not trying out the unexpected... just trying to make the two ends meet in a different sense...in the sesnse of grappling with the change and the precariousness of the situation around me .........i am stilll coping with the surroundings around me...trying little by little everyday to assert my identity..,to know myself..independent of the cushion of family and childhood friends who've always there for you....just a phonecall away...just a 10 min drive away...i miss swati also...she also has been a dear friend and a lovely person to be with ..she would always stand by the people she considers as friends...truly i miss her a lot...these people i now feel were a part of me...they were so near to me that today i realise their importance in my life...

it might be strange but im more and more becoming aware of a habit of mine...that of not reacting very loudly to a situation...which i consider to be a very good habit...but sometimes it so happens that i can't even show people the that im actually very happy in their happy moment and its just that i find it hard to express in an animated and overt fashion...but that in no means should suggest that i don't share their excitement...